Injury, and healing from it has been a large component of my life. Over time, I've made friends with pain and the healing process. Over the past decade I've been dealing with chronic pain. I used to think I was too sensitive and I don't use this word lightly... I hated this about myself. It's taken me a very long time to come to terms with sensitivity actually being a gift. My body has been trying to communicate with me since day one, in fact all bodies do this. This is where our soul is housed and it communicates with us through this structure (yet we so often misinterpret the signals because we aren't educated about it).
Gradually, early on in my journey through life, my ego decided that it wanted to be in control and would push my body past where it should because it wanted to fit it. The direction and intentions subconsciously chosen wasn't healthy so this turned out to be futile as the Universe kept trying to knock me back on course. It successfully did so again recently, February 2016, in the form of a concussion that brought with it 6 months of post concussion syndrome.
The longer you push it aside, the bigger the wake up call. The Universe needed to get my attention, so moving forward I choose to listen more and ask for lessons to come in a gentle and compassionate way. This healing journey was like a fast track to awakening. As the inner reflection and awareness that came from the brain being one and the same injured parties, was the most humbling experience. An invisible and life altering injury which is hardly understood, even today despite the huge surge of research and awareness present throughout society.
It's taken a long time to learn the lesson to listen, honour and trust my body and its messages. You know when you know something versus actually think you KNOW something. Now I really know how important it is to listen to my body. I still struggle with acting in alignment with this consistently, but it's a work in process. Thats part of the practice, the catching, acknowledging, and coming back to it. Baby steps. I'm still learning and will continue to do so. Interestingly enough I find myself in a transitionary time in life and this holds a whole lot of mystery and Unknown... and so I'm being called to trust my body and intuition more now, than ever before.
Oh Universe, how you work in humbling and majestic ways. Thank you for knocking some sense into me and helping me realize that I don't have to know how I will make changes happen but I will not waiver from the wild dream, keeping it alive and dancing in the realm of possibility. I have faith. I just need to ask, listen, and act. All the while, trusting that when we both play our part, everything will work out exactly the way it's meant to be. <3
“Remember that wherever your heart is, there you will find your treasure.”
~ Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist